Distal
I feel so raw, insecure
Certain enough to say I think i’m sure
There are things you feel, and things you know
When you’re strong enough to let your lifeline go
I took flight when my will failed
And when I found myself smashed against the bars I called this jail
It’s only against each other that we toil
The seed sings to the soil
The seed sings to the soil
Let me change Help me grow
I need your love to let the old me go
In my palm my lifeline splits and folds
I have lived the difference between growing up and growing old
I know why the caged heart sings
And what can be purchased with the gold coins we bring
These precious jewels on the altar laid
And our customs suggest they should be repaid, be repaid
But honey we’re hobbled on bones that we broke ourselves
Trying to force these bodies back into our former shells
But I won’t side with regret any more
The waves plead with the shore
The waves plead with the shore
Let me change help me grow
Love me enough to let the old me go
Distal pain, leaves unfurl
Reaching out into the world
I pierce us both with this attack
I say “Brace yourself” and pull the bowstring back
The arrow seeks a heart not to kill
But to make a scar to make it stronger still
Let me change
No one else needs to know our treaties and negotiations
Our borders are just lines on paper, our hearts sovereign nations
Is this blood or are these tears in the dark I cannot tell
I once knew you so well
These days when meaning is drowned out by noise
I can hear your voice
Still I can hear your voice
Let me change Help me grow
Love me enough to let the old me go
Distal pain, leaves unfurl
It’s already me against the world